Tuesday, May 10, 2005
fcuked up.i am tired. of ur expectations. i am tired. i cant meet them. i realli cant. they screwed up my life. they destroy my self esteem. they make me feel guilty all the time. they haunt me whenever i am alone.
why must u expect sooo much from me.
why must u expect in other word, force me to do things that i don wan to.
why must u make me feel guilty. why. it's not mine fault.
why must u think that i don care.
why must u make things worse.
the care and love should come from the heart. i think i am showing it bcos u wan me to. i am doing things becos u wan me to. bcos u will be hurt. u will anihow think. u will this u will that.
why cant u jus be contented.
why cant u count ur blessings.
so what if i dont look as thou i care. my life doesnt revolves around you onli. you you you. no. thats not the way. i haf my own priorities. my own circle of friends. i need time to maintain my relationship with own circle of friends. i duwan to lose them jus bcos of u.
why must u manipulate my life.
why must u be lydat.
hate is not the word. suffocated is. go away. i wan to see no more. listen no more. feel no more.


shedded at 5:37 AM

MYSELF!
Felicia
Victoria-JC
Seventeen-Plus
Eighteen-October
Feli_cia36@hotmail.com
LOVES!
Volleyball
Fei Fei
Family
Xiao Ming
Years in Cedar
Mahjong Gang
Being Loved
WINNING(money and competitions)
EAT!

HATES!
Liars
Being Unwanted
To Lose
Having Regrets
Nightmares
all the IF ONLYs